30 Days of 30: Day 3 The Dreaded Old Man Imposter Syndrome
There I stood, looking on to the dance floor as the Gen-Z and younger millennials pop-locked & dropped it to the beat of their favorite songs. I had found myself at an after-hours way past my bed time and LA’s club curfew which is 2am. There I was in this studio turned speakeasy at 4am, literally the wee hours of Saturday morning from a Friday club night.
It was in that moment I became painfully aware of my recent onset of frailness and my apparent old age. Although I don’t feel “older” or much different now than I did in my teenage years, I realized the first signs of old age are the joint pains, body aches and witnessing all these youngins popping up that first remind you you’re getting old and here lies the “the old man imposter syndrome, because clearly I’m old and can’t keep up with these kids but the crazy thing is I don’t feel old. I just know I’m not these children’s mate & it’s about time I replace all these young people clubbing activities for boujee’er experiences like fancy lounges with a live band playing jazz, house, and 90’s RnB and off course the very formal cocktail & dinner functions.
The whole night, I watched in awe at the caliber of their athleticism & at the strength of their knees. Knees so strong Megan The Stallion would be jealous. I stood there in awe and a little dismayed & nostalgic about my younger days.
Remembering when my bones didn’t hurt & when I used to run a mile under 9mins. ‘Gone are my younger days”, I told myself as I stood there with aching knees and yearning for the comfort of my bed. It’s 4th of July and LA Black Pride Weekend and I’m struggling to get through the second night. This weekend started on Thursday and ends on Monday so it’s very clear this going to be a very long weekend but this old cat is going to do his best to keep up with the shenanigans.
I may be old but don’t count me out this weekend
This Saturday was spent on the lake with Friends and getting ratchet at Catch One, LA. LOL!
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